Wild Hymn Journal: Secret Place (Cry)

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Take Me Away

Secret Place (cry)

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Rose of Sharon

Behind “Secret Place (Cry)”

In a wretched argument with my husband, I had screamed, “Good luck! You have 30 days!” as I slammed the door and lay down. I won’t even go into the details of that crisis, because I’ve already shared too much, but I was in a vortex of despair and couldn’t get out. Of course, I believed it was all his fault, and he had to fix it. After 12 years of marriage, we were weary of the same old arguments, and I was trying to find my footing in a freefall.

That evening, some old friends came over for dessert, (not knowing about our conflict) telling us out a counselor that they had told us about before. Suddenly, the words were life to me.  I played it cool, but I had to have it.  

The mp3 files.

Via Dropbox.

TONIGHT!

(He had offered, and I was so thankful.)

That night I put the earbuds in and began to listen to this teacher/pastor/counselor say, “If you will give me 30 days.”

Y’all…

He continued his words which began to slowly pull me out of my vortex. A discussion where theology and neurology and psychology and meditation and New Convenant Jesus teaching merge.

It is one thing to praying in the spirit, even groan in the spirit, but this was a different kind of time of prayer.

You know the mystery:  the fullness of Christ dwells in me in my spirit, but I have a soul that gets tangled up and not in agreement with that all-powerful provision and truth in my spirit (which is Christs united with mine in “unbroken fellowship”).

Where does God’s spirit flow into my consciousness so that it is revealed and expressed and enjoyed in my body/flesh.  That transformation from the inside out.

That secret place where we connect with the Lord not externally, because He is not outside. He is outside, but also within in the exchanged life, the communal life.

After those 30 days, the vortex was gone, and I could breathe and when I laid my hands on the keys to make music… this is one of the songs that came out from that sacred mysterious place of connecting with God.

Secret Place

I know
You know
Even more than I do

And I can
you can
Even more than I do

Tell it to my heart
I know
And you know
and I know it–It’s just the way goes
That’s the way it goes

Tell it to my heart
And you know and I’ll know
And I know it

That’s the way it goes
That’s the way it goes

What tears cry
Groans don’t lie

I’m there
And you there
Even more than I know
Your spirit
And my soul
Meet in my heart

Tell it to my heart
And I know
And you’ll know
I know it–that’s the way it goes
That’s the way it goes

Meet in my heart
Where you are
And I am
And I know it–that’s the way it goes
That’s the way it goes

What tears cry
Groans don’t lie

All {Wild Hymn Journal Posts}

Take Me Away

Secret Place (cry)

Trail

Rose of Sharon

 

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